Lexie - My Heart

[bordercollies_4ever]

Yesterday, February 2, 2009, was a year since Lexie died. I have missed her so much and the loss is still so fresh. I know I will never have another friend like her - she was that once in a lifetime dog. I have rescued several dogs hoping that I could make another connection with them - but it is just not there. I think I want a puppy - then I think maybe the older dogs and then I think maybe just a younger one. I have tried the older and the younger but not the puppy yet. It would not be fair to judge a puppy at such a young age - but then again puppies can make anyone smile.

I wish I had found her cancer sooner and I know they did all they could when they did find it - but I keep thinking I should have known sooner or done more. I miss her soft fur and sweet smile and the way she loved to play with the frisbee and tennis ball.

I know if dogs go to heaven she is there - she was my angel on earth. My kids use to say I loved her more than them. She never talked back to me and loved me no what and she never asked for one dime. They were grown and somehow did not understand the bond we had. My tears flow freely still as I know those of you who have lost their best friends still do.

Thank you for reading and letting me share my sorrow and pain.

To my Lexie - I loved you best ...
Your human,
Carole

[RuffMuttK9z]

I am very sorry for your loss, Carole.

[joe]

I can relate to your every word. But please don't give up. There is another dog out there that won't replace Lexie but will fill the void and ease your pain.
I am very sorry for your loss.

[BustopherJones]

I promised myself that I would not post on this board again. But I cannot let a fellow dog lover suffer without offering some solace, especially where a "heart dog" is involved. This was my tribute to Missy, my forever "heart dog", when I lost her 2 years ago; I share it only with those who have also lost a "heart dog".

ODE TO A HEART DOG

So this is where we part, my friend,
And you'll run on, around the bend,
Gone from sight, but not from mind,
New pleasures there you'll surely find.

I will go on. I'll find the strength.
Life measures quality, not its length.
One long embrace before you leave,
Share one last look, before I grieve.

There were others, that much is true,
But they be they, and they aren't you.
And I, fair, impartial, or so I thought,
Will remember well all you've taught.

Your place I'll hold, you will be missed,
The fur I stroked, the nose I kissed.
And as you journey to your final rest,
Take this with you....I loved you best.

-- Author Unknown

[BustopherJones]

And as far as thinking about another dog, here is some food for thought:

Sorrow fills a barren space;
you close your eyes and see my face
and think of times I made you laugh,
the love we shared, the bond we had,
the special way I needed you -
the friendship shared by just we two.

The day's too quiet, the world seems older,
the wind blows now a little colder.
You gaze into the empty air
and look for me, but I'm not there -
I'm in heaven and I watch you,
and I see the world around you too.

I see little souls wearing fur,
souls who bark and souls who purr,
born unwanted and unloved -
I see all this and more above -
I watch them suffer, I see them cry,
I see them lost, I watch them die.
I see unwanted thousands born -
and when they die, nobody mourns.

These little souls wearing fur
(some who bark and some who purr)
are castaways who - unlike me -
will never know love or security.
A few short months they starve and roam,
or caged in shelters - nobody takes home.
They're special too (furballs of pleasure),
filled with love, and each one a treasure.

My pain and suffering came to an end,
so don't cry for me, my person, my friend.
But think of the living - those souls with fur
(some who bark and some who purr) -
And though our bond can't be broken apart,
make room for another in your home and your heart.

Caro Schubert-James

[bordercollies_4ever]

Dear BustopherJones,
Thank you for that last poem - I do rescue for Lexie and that poem is so touching.
God Bless you for sharing.
Carole

[joe]

All posts that were not a tribute to Lexie have been removed. Again if you wish to debate the afterlife start in Misc. or Off Topic.
Angie I missed the check box on your reply and it got deleted by accident, I apologize.

[ajones]

No problem, Joe. I'll just say again how sorry I am for Carole's loss and how appropriate a tribute it is to Lexie that she helps other dogs in her memory.